simple is effective

I never had any doubts about this theory. Growing up in a middle class family in India in eighties some things were itched in my personality by my parents like,

Honesty is the best policy, NO EXCEPTIONS.

Good wins over evil in the end, ALWAYS.

The darkest hour is just before the dawn, EVERY NIGHT.

In the present times, many of us think that this is too old school. But these “old school” values have never failed me . And I am certain that they will not fail me in the future too. But am I really certain? I doubt, if I was certain then I should not fret when the ‘nights are too dark,’ BUT I DO. I should not feel frustrate when someone is shoving honesty down the drain and stating untrue things in discussions (and even getting admiration for that), BUT I DO (even when I know that the appreciations earned this way are too short lived). I should not panic when my Meek Good meets a Strong Bad adversary (and such encounters are common), BUT I DO.

So I believe in some good things, that I learnt when I was too little and after many years I believe that all those are good enough to fight and win the daily battles. But I doubt and doubt makes me fragile. Making mistakes when frail is common and then blaming the strength of the weapons for the loss is common too. I do understand this, in theory always and in practice during good times. Why doesn’t this wisdom stay with me always?

If you force the flow of water then the flow will cease to be natural, and cease to be simple. So all I need is undying faith in the principles that I learnt as a kid and follow them always. 

Today was one of those  dark days and for the most part I did stick to “honestly being my only Policy” in the debates and at the end people seem to have understood (though some of them very reluctantly) and now I think the doubts I had before the debate were not required at all.  I am not sure what should I do for this doubt and fear, so may be for now I will do nothing about it.

I have heard, Fear and Pain are important as they keep you alarmed and out of the harm’s way.

Okay, enough of my blabbering for now. Hope you did get what I wanted to say ... and maybe you experience some of that values vs doubt clash too. If yes then it is a good thing, as I am not too comfortable being alone :)